There is something about this one that really captures my state of mind at the moment. A definite longing for the sea has come over me as Dallas creeps through the lazy hazy days of summer. My whole life has drawn me to the ocean, something at once that is at once calm and tranquil, tumultuous, vast and knowing, mysterious and deep. Something that is a part of myself that I have yet to find...thinking of the sea reminds me that every day is a journey, and the journey itself is home.
Canvas is 12" x 12" x 1.5". This deep canvas is gallery-wrapped, meaning there are no exposed staples on the sides. It is ready to hang, and painted on all sides so there is no need to frame. Painting is highly textured and inviting to touch, containing layer upon layer of soft blues, teal and deep navy.
When I completed this painting, I was reminded of the Charles Bukowski Poem, below...
no help for that / Charles Bukowski
there is a place in the heart that will never be filled a space and even during the best moments and the greatest times we will know it we will know it more than ever there is a place in the heart that will never be filled and we will wait and wait in that space. ~ You Get So Alone At Times That It Just Makes Sense, 1986
And isnt this the truth? The space haunts me. It follows me around wherever I go, no matter who Im with, at any given moment. At the darkest moments, it feels like a gaping hole in my small universe. At other times, the space is shallow, but its never full. This space is restlessness, a longing for more, not be confused with unhappiness or depression. Its fidgeting, constantly going and moving and talking and thinking. For me, it is a fear of never feeling complete or always adrift in the world. But here's the thing I focused on while painting this piece...that's not always a bad thing.
But even in the best of times, times when I should feel like I have it all, there is a glint of something missing I have always thought that I just wasnt occupying the space with the right things. It is an ongoing challenge for me to be comfortable there. So, I have always tried to fill it. I have tried to cover it up with family obligations, friendships, yoga, partying and work. But, I realize now, the space can never be filled. As Bukowski writes, there is no help for that. The space will always be with us. What I strive to do is learn to accept it and face the insecurity, rather than fill it. The space is not supposed to take us over. It is there to remind us that there is more and there will always be more. It is our motivation to continue searching for those things and people that keep the space small. And there is nothing wrong with that faint indication of longing
This listing is for the original painting. However, I also offer fine art giclee prints of any of my works. Prints are professionally ordered and come in a vaiety of sizes.
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